My puppy

....likes to spoon when we sleep and puts her front paws around me. Talk about awkward...

Oh what's in a name....

People misspell my name all the time. I'm used to it.

But, when it is something that is supposed to be "professional" you would think the person would double check the spelling.

I don't know why it upsets me. If you are going to list everyone who has ever been there, you better list them correctly. And I'm not the only one that is wrong. Which makes me even more upset. They just didn't care what they were doing. Don't just do your job half way. If you do it, do it right.

So, boys and girls, the moral of this story is if you are going to misspell something, you better make sure it isn't someone's name. Because that makes them upset.

Do you ever wonder...

if McDonalds employees play in the playground area in the early hours and there are little to no customers?

I do.

Because I so would.

I know my heart, I know my mind.

...I know that I'm stuck up behind.

My mom used to say that to me all the time. But all kidding aside...

This is why I can't do much grocery shopping by myself. I tell her no, and she starts Tantrum WWIII.

Yes, this is her being angry with mom, not just being silly.

country

We have been spending a lot of time with the in-laws.

in the country.

And when I say country, I mean country. One morning I woke up, looked out the window and 2 cows were walking down the road. Its THAT country.

But its perfect.

There is something so refreshing about not having the hoard of people you get in the city. You can't just hop in your car to go to the movie or shopping. You have to figure out creative things to do with your time. We spend lots of time with the family. We take walks to the park. Go to the lake. Have picnics. Take Zoey to see the "oooos," AKA Cows. Its perfect.

I really want to move there one day.

While I am still getting over my city girl ways...I couldn't think of a better place to raise our family. There is such a large sense of community there. That's something I always have valued.

The only problem is that most people make their living by farming. And, well, that includes having a ton of land. And that is probably not in our cards right now. or ever. The other people work out of town. My father in law drives almost 2 hours to work one way. Or at one of the 3 gas stations, the subway, or Dairy Queen. I'm not getting a degree to make people sandwiches. Even though there is nothing wrong with that. Its just not what I want to do.

And so, for now, we are stuck visiting as often as we can. *Sigh*

change of heart

I'm one of those people that will think and think and think and think everything over. And so it takes me forever to make up my mind on big important things. And so sometimes Chris has to kick me and say just make up your mind. Our life is full of impulses that we had thought about for a long time but were "waiting" for the perfect time, and then we said lets do it. Key example, Zoey's pierced ears. We had talked about waiting or getting them pierced forever. Then one day we were at the mall and had no where to go for an hour so we just said lets get her ears pierced. and so we did.

That being said....

We got a puppy!!!!

We have been talking about getting a dog for a long time. (our rule was first get a plant, then a fish, then a dog, and THEN a baby. That obviously didn't happen. but a dog has always been on the list).Then my husband's friend had puppies and we were going to get one, but decided that they were going to grow too big. But that got our puppy heart rolling, and so by the end of the weekend we found the perfect dog.

Her name is Rusty.

Getting her has helped me appreciate the present. For a long time now I have been thinking "when we have a house," or "when I can be pregnant" or "when I graduate" yada yada yada. I've been putting so much focus of the future life I am going to have. But why? I have a perfect family. A perfect house. A perfect life. there is no need to spend so much thought into the future when I have so much going for me right now in this moment.

I'm so grateful that we took the plunge and added this little angel to our life. She is perfect.


PS Happy 100th post!!!! woot!!

Bath Monster

Today I thought we would have fun and give Zoey a big, fun bubble bath.

Every young child's dream, right???

NOPE!

I'm pretty sure this is what she saw...

Becase she was horribly horribly scared of the bubbles.

The End.

Today is a good day.

Lets jump back in time to July 2009. I was big and pregnant. And found a delicious new candy.

Then fast forward to August 2009. I found out I had gestational diabetes, so the best part of pregnancy was ripped away from me. I could now no longer eat candy guilt free. Instead any bite of basically anything was full of guilt because I had a very hard time controlling it. And so my life of enjoying these fabulous tangy filled twizzler twists was no more.

October 2009, my sugar was constantly low due to an antibiotic I was taking, so what did I decide to be my first sugary goodness in months. Twizzlers. And thus my love for theme were rekindled.

After Zoey was born my husband bought me like 3 bags.

Well about 8-10 months ago they stopped selling them at Wal-mart. Every once in a while we could find them at other stores, but not all the time, and if we did they were double the price. And so I thought my life with these babies were coming to a close again.

And then today, May 9, 2011, we found them at Wal-mart again!!!!! We bought a bag. And it is now gone.

Today is a good day. Its almost like finding out that my pet goldfish didn't actually die and was swimming in the toilet after all. 

I Am

I AM


I am a wife, and a mother. But mostly I'm me.
I wonder if I'm following where I'm led.
I hear my daughter's laughter.
I see a room full of toys.
I want a family who knows they're loved.
I am a wife, and a mother. But mostly I'm me.

I pretend to dance on stage: standing ovation.
I feel so very blessed.
I touch his hand, and know he's mine.
I worry that I worry too much.
I cry when I watch cartoons.
I am a wife, and a mother. But mostly I'm me.

I understand life isn't one size fits all.
I believe in Heavenly Father's Plan.
I dream of a backyard.
I try to put make up on every day.
I hope to grow old together.
I am a wife, and a mother. But mostly I'm me.