Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Almost Wordless Wednesday---Cute tennies
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Day 6: something you hope you never have to do
Something I hope I never have to do is come across a situation where I have to do CPR, especially to Zoey. I'm CPR certified and I really don't think I would trust myself to actually do it right. And if something were to happen to that person and they wouldn't make it, I would blame myself for not being able to save them or to do more. And if it was Zoey I'd be an even larger wreck. Although I am going into nursing and will see life or death situations, having to do CPR just scares me. Practicing on a dummy is not the same thing as doing it on a real person. Besides I don't want to work in the ER or anything anyways, so hopefully these situations won't be something I deal with on a daily or frequent basis.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Day 5: Something you wish to do in your life
This is something kind of cheesy. But, the one thing I truly hope I get to do is sit next to Chris as we go to a Cowboys game. Few things in life could make him happier than seeing his team live. As much as I get bored watching sports, I know that this would make my husband's life complete. Being able to share in that moment with him would be an honor.
Other than that, I'd love to go to New York and see all the ballets and shows. But, I think I'd turn all that down if it was between that and Dallas. Call me crazy.
Other than that, I'd love to go to New York and see all the ballets and shows. But, I think I'd turn all that down if it was between that and Dallas. Call me crazy.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for
I've been thinking and thinking about what to post for this one...hence the gap between day 3 and day 4.
Basically, I've come to the conclusion that this is between me and this person. The Internet doesn't need to know, and neither do you. Sorry. Making it public would just exacerbate my problem even if the chances are pretty slim of actually ever reading this. This issue has been something I've been struggling with for some time now, and hope one day I can put it all behind me.. :)
Basically, I've come to the conclusion that this is between me and this person. The Internet doesn't need to know, and neither do you. Sorry. Making it public would just exacerbate my problem even if the chances are pretty slim of actually ever reading this. This issue has been something I've been struggling with for some time now, and hope one day I can put it all behind me.. :)
Sunday, October 24, 2010
purse cleaning....
Yesterday I left my car keys in my husband's car. He was at work an hour away, so I was carless for the day. We had an extra set of keys at one point, but have gotten lost somewhere. I figured I'd try to find them. In this search I decided to clean 2 of my old purses in case they were in there. Unfortunately, no keys. But I did find a few fun things.
* 6 lip glosses ...no wonder I've been missing them for a while.
*thousands of tutie footie candies.***
* a spoon...
*multiple bags of fruit snacks, or protein bars
*$3.57 in change
*2 snickers wrappers
*1 Twix wrapper
*2 name tags for work. 1 was mine, the other one was my friends that I stole one day when I couldn't find my other one. I lost hers shortly after.
*lots of chocolate crumbs that attached to most of the change above
*Many other tiny things I've "lost"
Needless to say, I used both of those purses when I was pregnant. (Before I was diabetic). Can ya tell??
***(I'm only exaggerating a little when I say thousands. When I was pregnant I thought it was a great idea to go buy some tutie frooties. Unfortunately, they only come in 1 pound bags of one flavor. I couldn't have just one flavor, so I ended up getting 5 pounds of candy....)***
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
I guess the easy stance on this would be to say I need to forgive myself for not being selfish in a time when I should have, and to forgive myself when I was selfish and shouldn't have been.
I was in a very bad relationship. It was definitely one of those everyone is telling you get out but you just don't listen because you're "in love" relationships. Everything about it was bad. Now, 3 years later I'm still haunted by some of the things I've had to go through because of it. Things that only I will ever know, or understand. I hate the fact that I didn't listen to my gut a lot earlier in that relationship. I needed to be selfish, but I held on because he "needed me." The only reason he needed me was because he had too much emotional baggage and needed someone to leach on to and suck all their blood and money out of. He needed someone to pay his bills. I didn't realize how abnormal it was that a freshly graduated 18 year old was paying the rent for a 22 year old. Someone who didn't have a car. Someone who didn't have a kid. (as far as he ever told me...). Who didn't have a credit card or bills of that nature. Who had a full time job and only paid $300 a month. Now, I'm a 22 year old with a baby, a mortgage on a house we OWN, car payment, house bills ect. We manage perfectly, it may get tight at times, but we make it work. I really wish I would have realized how emotionally, and financially abusive that relationship was when I was actually in it, rather than now. I saw the signs. I just didn't listen until I had a cute boy who showed me what a real gentleman was like. (who I ended up cuddling with last night because that's what married people do :-) )But, I also wish I could forgive myself for making that mistake. I really wish I could.
I was in a very bad relationship. It was definitely one of those everyone is telling you get out but you just don't listen because you're "in love" relationships. Everything about it was bad. Now, 3 years later I'm still haunted by some of the things I've had to go through because of it. Things that only I will ever know, or understand. I hate the fact that I didn't listen to my gut a lot earlier in that relationship. I needed to be selfish, but I held on because he "needed me." The only reason he needed me was because he had too much emotional baggage and needed someone to leach on to and suck all their blood and money out of. He needed someone to pay his bills. I didn't realize how abnormal it was that a freshly graduated 18 year old was paying the rent for a 22 year old. Someone who didn't have a car. Someone who didn't have a kid. (as far as he ever told me...). Who didn't have a credit card or bills of that nature. Who had a full time job and only paid $300 a month. Now, I'm a 22 year old with a baby, a mortgage on a house we OWN, car payment, house bills ect. We manage perfectly, it may get tight at times, but we make it work. I really wish I would have realized how emotionally, and financially abusive that relationship was when I was actually in it, rather than now. I saw the signs. I just didn't listen until I had a cute boy who showed me what a real gentleman was like. (who I ended up cuddling with last night because that's what married people do :-) )But, I also wish I could forgive myself for making that mistake. I really wish I could.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Day 2: What I love about myself
What do I love about myself, besides being totally awesome of course. :) I guess I would say my drive and dedication to my school work. School doesn't come easy to me, even if it looks like it. I have to work on it. A LOT. Now, add being a mom on top of a student and it makes my choice to keep going to school that much harder, but the end result that much better. I only have my associates degree, but I'm pretty proud of that. This time next year I should be a 1.5 months away from having my BA in English. I totally see why people say get your education done before you have children, because it is hard work. But, to me, accomplishing this while being a mom is something to be pretty dang proud of.
I also love being me. Is that bad to say? I have the best husband, the cutest daughter, amazing family. I have learned you need surround yourself with happy people if you want to be happy yourself. It took me a while to get to this point. But I love myself for it. I love that I'm no longer scared to speak my mind (for the most part). When I say something I do it. I stand up for my convictions. I may get the crappy end of something because of it, but at least I'm not a sell out.
I also love being me. Is that bad to say? I have the best husband, the cutest daughter, amazing family. I have learned you need surround yourself with happy people if you want to be happy yourself. It took me a while to get to this point. But I love myself for it. I love that I'm no longer scared to speak my mind (for the most part). When I say something I do it. I stand up for my convictions. I may get the crappy end of something because of it, but at least I'm not a sell out.
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