Nursing school is hard. There, I said it. Now that that is off my chest, I can go on to more important things. ....such as how much I love nursing. I don't even know what I was thinking when I was thinking anything but nursing. I am so excited to serve humanity in such a unique way. Very few professions have the ability to make such an impact on someones life. We are there for someone in a way the average person can't be. I am so blessed that I am on my way to fulfill my dreams. I know through my experiences that I am meant to be a nurse.I don't want to say its a calling, but its pretty darn close.
If I wasn't supposed to be here, than I wouldn't be. If I wasn't supposed to have a closer-to-death-than-I-ever-want-to-get experience the day AFTER I get accepted, than things wouldn't have happened. I know I'm turning all philosophical on you, but thats how it is. That is only going to make me a better nurse. I am on a mission to support the mother and family after a birth trauma. There are little to know resources out there. We are forgotten. If you loose a baby you have a support group. If your child is born with a birth defect you have a support group. If you get an amniotic emboli and end up getting DIC you don't. (now I'm not trying to downplay those situations at all. I whole heartily hope that I never have to go through that myself. But, due to the nature of their situation its easier to identify the need for support. We birth trauma moms don't have anything substantial for people to see and identify with that we need help too. So its just different.) We need a community to come to who understands our problems. Who understands resenting your child for the way she came to the world, but feeling like the worse person in the world because of those feelings. For feeling like a failure because you missed seeing your two children see each other for the first time. Getting off my soap box now.... I know that it is my duty to these mothers to create such support. I don't know if it will come when (not if) I am working in Labor and Delivery. Or if it is something I work on now before I even step foot in a hospital as an RN. But it is my duty to help them. And, in tern, help myself.
